No Sleep

This seemed completely logical at 4:30 in the morning.  Here is proof that I am starting to get my shit together (finally) this year.  Let's get this show on the road, man!

New Year

Okay, so now that I haven't posted anything at all in over a year, I have decided that I am going to start blogging way more often, probably on Sundays or possibly a random weekday thrown in at one point or another.  I want to make more use out of my blog instead of just using my account to snoop around at other people's blogs.  What do you think?

I got the idea to do a 365 challenge from a few different sources, but I'm not entirely sure I want to commit to anything that large just yet considering my year without a single post.  I feel like I want some sort of theme attached to this blog, but honestly, I don't think I could keep track of separating all of the different 'themes' into different blogs and keep up with posting in each one at least once a week..  That seems way more stressful than I could hope for.  So, this is probably going to end up in a big mishmosh mess of a page, but it will be my year broken down into (mostly)weekly segments.  I think I can handle 52 posts over an entire year, right?  Right.

I've also been doing more DIY, drawing, makeup, and clothing things, and also super-nerd events like zombie marches and comic conventions, so this year will be full of exciting new things for me, and hopefully you, too.  I have a new sewing machine, my camera, and HOPEFULLY will be working out more so I can stop being such a mush-face.

For now, that's it.  Hopefully someone will read this and possibly get motivated, too, and maybe leave me a comment so that when I just want to take a nap, I know I should actually do something instead =P  Happy New Year!

Ever have those days that start off really well?

I woke up two hours early by accident, went for a walk in the dark, and now I'm making iced green tea before I have to be at work in a little less than an hour.  Also, I got a lot of stuff on the internets done... Checked all of my emails (three different accounts, woohoo) facebook, twitter, tumblr, and a few other things.

Just hoping this energy lasts through the day x_x

Last Week

This is a fairly accurate depiction of how my week ended last week.

People at work are dumb, bitch that things aren't getting done while they just stand around and I do all of their work, I seem to be getting stuck with that particular person a lot lately, and then an angry hurricane to knock out our power and cellphone service for almost a week.

Not to mention I have a wisdom tooth that is trying to jump ship from the underworld of my gums and into the real world of my mouth.

Needless to say, I wasn't the happiest indoor camper...  But it's a new week, and so far it's not likely to make my eyes and mouth bleed...much.

(I wrote this out a few days ago, but I figured since I haven't posted anything in almost a month, I'd at least post this.  Better than nothing, right?)

It's a cozy, rainy kind of day, and although it's a cozy day, I'm uncomfortable.  I feel weird in my skin and where I am and my clothes feel weird and keep bunching up and I can't be bothered to clean my room today.  Maybe I can finally find something to do with all of this stuff, clean out the clutter, do something to make things feel more 'clear', more something than anything else.  Maybe.

Blah... x_x Do you ever feel like you're supposed to be happy for someone or about something at the same time that you're extremely sad and worried about something unrelated? Or that you're still holding out hope for something, but at the same time, you feel like the whole situation is completely hopeless? I just don't know what to think anymore.

This is one of the main reasons I always want to leave... I know that means I'm running away from my problems, but things are getting to be too much for me again and I don't want to be where I am anymore. Thanks for bearing with me through the personal bullshit rant I just went on...

Realizations..

So, it's currently 2:22 AM EST, and I'm starting to think about possible plans and ideas.  Today is my little brother's 16th birthday =)

First of all, I realized that I need to stop being so impulsive, because that's generally the reason I never have any money.  If I stop shopping online all the time, I could afford to move out.  If I can move out, my mom says I can;t go very far, but my older sister and I were talking about it on the way home from work.  My mom may not like it very much if I go farther away, but it's (unfortunately, on her part) not her decision.  I've been considering Oregon, Gresham/Portland area to be a little more specific.  But then again, I do love Boston.  But there's also reason for me to go down to the West Haven/New Haven area in Connecticut.  And a friend wants me to move down to Richmond, Va.

If I leave Connecticut, I feel like I'll be more lonely than I am now because I'll know even less people anywhere else.  Yet, I don;t think I want to stay around here because I hate it.  I mean, there are some things that I love about this place, but most of the time, I'm dying to leave.  I don't really know what to do, moving out on your own seems a lot harder than it was before when I just moved with my family wherever they went... Help?