Realizations..

So, it's currently 2:22 AM EST, and I'm starting to think about possible plans and ideas.  Today is my little brother's 16th birthday =)

First of all, I realized that I need to stop being so impulsive, because that's generally the reason I never have any money.  If I stop shopping online all the time, I could afford to move out.  If I can move out, my mom says I can;t go very far, but my older sister and I were talking about it on the way home from work.  My mom may not like it very much if I go farther away, but it's (unfortunately, on her part) not her decision.  I've been considering Oregon, Gresham/Portland area to be a little more specific.  But then again, I do love Boston.  But there's also reason for me to go down to the West Haven/New Haven area in Connecticut.  And a friend wants me to move down to Richmond, Va.

If I leave Connecticut, I feel like I'll be more lonely than I am now because I'll know even less people anywhere else.  Yet, I don;t think I want to stay around here because I hate it.  I mean, there are some things that I love about this place, but most of the time, I'm dying to leave.  I don't really know what to do, moving out on your own seems a lot harder than it was before when I just moved with my family wherever they went... Help?